I can't get over the feeling that I'm wasting whatever portion of my life I've got left.

In this video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jgTCayWlwc

"A rant on personal engineering projects" by BPS.shorts

The author makes the point that when you're working commercially on part of a project, the organization always has a way to keep the project going, even if you fail. If the cost goes over, they can usually change the scope or budget to fit it in.  If the parts don't integrate well, they can buy a system already integrated, or even the company that has already done it.

However, on a personal project, if any part fails, the whole thing fails. The main hazard is simply not finishing the project, rather than doing any one stage optimally. I think there's a shit-ton of value in this analysis.

Good Quote from Pale Rose in the comments @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jgTCayWlwc&lc=Ugxjv3J38ajw82_bmtF4AaABAg

    *Personal projects have a unique requirement that you must optimize for: 'finishing the damn project'. Everything else is secondary*

I want to be a high-?? individual, someone who can get shit done.  High agency?

Yep... that's the term, from https://x.com/tferriss/status/1719035575305408551

During my podcast interview with @EricRWeinstein, Eric said “high-agency person” in passing, and I asked him to elaborate: 

“When you’re told that something is impossible, is that the end of the conversation, or does that start a second dialogue in your mind, how to get around whoever it is that’s just told you that you can’t do something? So, how am I going to get past this bouncer who told me that I can’t come into this nightclub? How am I going to start a business when my credit is terrible and I have no experience?”"

Mike's plan for becoming high-agency

• List the projects I have, maintain said list
• Always be working to finish the things on the list, or pruning the list
• Always be gathering resources, or using them, never just hording them